A NEw me!

I don’t know there are circumstances in which one can’t avoid coming face to face with. I know that I’m writing in English but I think it’s an emergency. I have a lot in my mind and I want to jot them down before it goes away. To start off, the semester is coming to an end, scary right? Tell me about it, I feel that we barely started like all dreams this dream is coming to an end in four weeks. And I’m nervous, the only thing I’m worried about is about the presentation on Thursday for my Chicano/ Latino class, I need to give a presentation about the DREAM Act/ AB540 and get this I also need to go to a school board meeting at the school district that I attended. So much to do in a little time right? The semester is even ending and I’m still freaking out in my head. I’m nervous, my whole body is shaking as if I was sick or something. I know I suppose to be finishing up my Lab report for my PHSC lab, but it’s an emergency. After writing down my thoughts I will continue, I promise. My weekend, I think I’m finally happy. I think the help of that special person that is always watching over me, will help me achieve my goals. I just need to have faith in my self. Anything is possible if you have confidence in yourself. I realize the reason that I was sad, I had a lot inside of me and finally this Saturday I went to confess and after that I felt relieve. I felt free and happy, I never felt this way, well not for a long time. I think that’s what I needed. I just needed to let out my pain and now I feel fresh. I could start fresh.

I have so much energy in me right now. One of goals this week is not to think about Elvis that much. I really do like him but I have to show myself that I really do like him by not talking or thinking about him that much. I honestly this time I want to take a step at a step. I don’t want be going fast, I think that’s why things don’t work out. Hey, but I don’t end up with him it’s find. I know GOD has a different plan for me. I should understand that things will happen when they need to happen, I don’t have to rush into things. I should have patience which I have a lack of. This week, is holy week. You know what I realize, yesterday it was Palm Sunday, and I realize how pack it was. I told my mom, why isn’t the church pack every Sunday. I’m not saying that I go to church every Sunday I feel bad of that, but why does the church get pack only on the important days of the church, why don’t they come every Sunday. really, after this Sunday it has got me really thinking about it. Oh get this, before going to bed yesterday I was going through my bible from confirmation and I was reading some passages, I never thought that reading bible could teach us things.

I also think about the people who have “taken advantage” of me, I know I shouldn’t be bringing this up, but I think it’s a point that I need to clear up and forget. There’s a person that I don’t want to mention but I think it’s necessary, he’s a jerk. But I decided to forgive him and all others. I mean what’s the point of being upset with them, they aren’t the only guilty ones here, I was part of it. But also GOD told us that we need to forgive those who did harm to us doesn’t matter how much harm they did to us. I’m trying not to hold a grudge on them, I learn that having grudges on people it ruins your life. Okay, I think I should end here. I need to get back to work.